Me and my past
What's left behind? All these photos?
I was so young and beautiful... Not anymore... old and ugly now...Am I happy now? Did I make mistakes? Big? small?
Any regrets?
Have I fulfilled my own destiny? Or is there any destiny? At all?
The house's dying. This place is dying... and I'm dying, too...
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Oh... John... my husband... He was so sweet. He was a good man. At least he tried to be. And good men die early... How cruel he left me alone... for all these years?My children... They lead their own lives. Are they going to be alright? Without me? Or better without me? I'm now a burden to them. It's better if I just vanish from their lives...
My sisters... I'm sorry for what I've done... I shouldn't have... Will they pardon me? Set me free? And set themselves free from rage of hatred?
My father... I'm sorry I ran away from home. I made mistakes. Had you pardoned me before you left this world? All these years...
Mom... I'm sorry about the tortures you had to suffer all these years. It's my fault.I'm sorry...
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How am I going to be remembered? Will they remember me, at all? Or is it of any importance?Will I ever meet John again? Where is he now? Heaven? Or hell? Where? Will I recognize him in next life? Is there next life? Reincarnation?
Is this what I have now? Memories of bitters and sweets? Questions unanswered?What significant is my life? Or is it any important?
What now?...
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The house's dying. This place is dying... and I'm dying, too...PS:
1) The story is about a lady; a lady in you and me.
2) Illustration taken from Gurbuz Dogan Eksioglu. Info of artist by Miki. Thank you, Miki!
